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10/18/2022 - health update: getting lucky, getting older, beginning EMDR, sending my body backwards into the darkest parts of its memory and doing it with my chin up. Content warning.

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Lilo Mari
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It is cloudy, but warm today. There is no sunshine for the kittens to bask in, so they are sleeping in hiding places. The pressure around my head is about a 5 on the pain scale, but I’m about to take another pill. I have been taking a new medication for one week, and I am finally seeing some relief. I have been seeking treatment for this headache for 8 months. Doctors still don’t know what is causing it, but the upper limit of my pain has been getting lower every day.

I was told that I actually can’t continue the medication, and I need to wean off of it, but this is still a major success for me. Even though this trend of relief might not continue, I know that something worked for me. Even if it’s not full relief, it’s not untreatable.

When I tell other people how I feel, it feels like I'm trying to convince myself too. Yes, I have been struggling, and yes, I do need more support. Yes, I have been doing better. Yes, I do have the energy for that today.

I had my third session of EMDR therapy on my birthday. I am 22 now and I feel like I’m too young. I have experienced too much.

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